Have I ever mentioned that I am an extreamly jealous person? This, I would have to say, is one of my major faults. It is what brings me down in the end. It goes a little like this.. -Everything is happy. It's new, it's exciting, it's perfect. - Then I start to notice little things. Phone calls where he onlys anwsers in a "yes" or "no". I tell myself.. it's his mom.. or a guy. But I don't believe myself. I think it's a girl. - Then I see his ex. I feel threatend. I feel angry. I'm so jealous im blind to the fact that she is old news and I am current. - After that I feel diffrent. It's not happy anymore. It's me wanting to know that my jealousy is for nothing, but him not knowing and therefore not acting any diffrently. - I know that it's just me but I can't stop it. I want him to notice but I don't know what to say. I'm confusing myself. I'm lost. the Jealousy has won. I keep it all inside. Another mistake. It boils inside. Feeding on my imagination. I'm so jealous I act diffrently, distant. It drives them away. Ultimitely causing the relationship to end. My fault. Game Over. ~Jessica*~