I really missed David this weekend. I don't want to, I just do.. I can't help it. It sucks. I hate being the third wheel. I was this weekend at Knotts. It just made me realize how many couples there are in this world. And it just got rubbed in my face that I have no one. Loren and Justin drama continues.. And the saga of Ricky and Brittany begins. They all just need to end it, I don't know why they don't realize it. Staci is over right now. It feel soo good to talk to her about everything. I have been penting up all this frustration about everything. Letting it out just feels good. Today Justin and I yelled at each other again. F Him. I hate him. He knows that and apperently if I was a guy he would punch me and break a few bones.. He also pointed out that he can get "people" and I can't. He always makes me feel like bad.. like he hurts my feelings.. but what can I do? I hate him. I feel so sad for her. When I see her cry I want to cry, when I see her in pain I want to kill him. I don't understand... Why wouldn't it work? You have time. I don't want to feel this way. ~Jessica*~