So today was good .. and bad. Whenever Josh got home from work, I was fucking miserable. Lately my depression + insomnia has been getting to me. So I said I didnt wanna go out to eat, and go food shopping. Which started an argument. *sigh* I just started bawling my eyes out for no reason whenever he went to take a shower. I was literally praying to god to take my life. At that point, I really thought I couldnt handle life anymore. So then he gets out of the shower, and I thought he left, so I started crying harder, and he came in the room. And he pulled this "pity me" shit, and went into the guest bedroom. So I went in and asked him wtf was wrong. He's like you always ruin my plans, etc. So it just got me even more upset, and I started crying again. And I asked him, straight up, "Do I ruin your life?" [no], "Am I just dragging you down with me?" [no] and various other questions along those lines. It was bad. We finally talked everything out. Then we went out to eat at Damons .. and it took like an hour to get our food. Then we went to the mall and bought the new Twiztid cd .. which has ink all over the back of the cd and skips on half the fuqqin songs. So we went food shopping at walmart, in and out within a half an hour. w00p - we're shopping champs. THEN I come home, and BP called. I have an interview there tomorrow. Yes, it's part time, its a shit job .. SHIIIIT i'll take it. A job is money, whether its a shit job or not. So I'm fuqqing praying I get this job. I need this job like I need air to breathe. It's that damn important. TooDLeS ♥