So yesterday was good. Hung out with Justin, we went job hunting, blah blah blah. I doubt anything will come of that, but at least I tried. So I came home around 12:30/1, and passed out till 9:30. Jules called, and asked to hang out, so she came over. She then calls Badass. Badass informs us he's in Oakland, so we drive over there, and hang out with Badass, & Will. We walked around Oakland for a bit, then we went to some kid Tonys apartment. Hung out there, Jules, Will, and Badass had a sharpie fight. Then we watched Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, and smoked some erbb. We left there, had to take Badass & Will to Duquesne where Badass lives. HOLY SHIT .. it was just a fuqqed up drive. lol. But we made it home safe. She dropped me off .. and that was my night. So I wrote Josh a note last night saying "I love you .. Your my everything" .. and he writes me this note. UGH. He's like flipping out about how he thinks I didnt go job hunting, and he's mad at me, etc. But the thing is, I WENT TO LOOK FOR A JOB YESTERDAY. This is just getting ridiculous. All we do is fight, or argue anymore. I'm just sick of all this bullshit. I miss the way we used to be. How happy everything was. How much we were in love. How great it was to be around each other. We lost all of that though. ALL OF IT. But, I probably fuqqed up this relationship .. so it'll all end up being my fault. [But when isn't it!?] So the plan is .. get 2 jobs, save up as much money as I can, and leave. Find an apartment, and live on my own. After this, I dont want a boyfriend .. or a girlfriend for a LONG time. Fuqq relationships. All they do is bring heartache + pain. Fuqq it. I'm sick of all of it. I just want to be alone. Maybe then I'll finally be happy. TooDLeS ♥