It's one of those morning where I haven't slept all night, and my brains trippin out on me again. Fuck. Certain things in life just aren't adding up the way they're supposed to. Bitch. Bitch. Bitch. It's as simple as this :: Last wednesday night, I found out who my true friends are. Not the - "oh your stuck in oakland? your going to walk home? i'll call you back" .. and then you never do - friends. What the fuck would you have done if something would've happened to me? CRY? Tears won't save me if i'm 6 feet under. Not the -"I'm gonna attempt to kiss you repeatedly even though you have a boyfriend and I have a girlfriend" - friend. That's not friendship pal. That's lust. When you have lust in your heart, there's no room for love. Think about it. I realized I only have about 3 people [aside from josh] .. that will be there NO MATTER WHAT. And they're the most important things in the world to me. The rest of you? Eat me. Oh yahh .. i'm bleeding again. No babies for Dara. Woo Hoo! I burnt my eyelid with a fucking cigarette last night. Don't ask. I dont know. I then spent 10 minutes crying/laughing. Seriously. I was hysterically crying and maniacally laughing all at the same time. And I truly felt both emotions. It was crazy. Jessiey looked like she was gonna freak out. She had no idea what I did or how to help me. lol. I lubb her. Anyway. I'm out. eatitbitch.