Today was a semi good, semi bad day. Woke up around 12, spent about 3 hours just fucking around, smokin Erb, and talking online. Then Josh got home, & I asked him to take me over Jessieys. Went over there around 4:30. Spent about 5 hours over there. My god daughter Kaylah was there. omg. She's so0o cute. Like today, I was laying on the bed on one side, Jessiey was on the other. And Kaylah wouldn't let Jess hold her, and she crawled right over to me, into my lap, like clutched onto me. I gave her the biggest hug. I might've even cried. It was so sweet. Then I called Josh around 9:30 to come get me. We took a drive around South Park, and I thought about a LOT of shit. Then we got into a slight argument, came back here, and I started crying. BC I hate how my life is right now. But ima do everything in my power to change it. So now i'm sitting here, all fucked up on pain killers, I just smoked a bowl, so i'm GREAT. lol. I love this feeling. The feeling of complete numbness. No thinking. No feeling. NOTHING. My brain feels fuzzy. I can barely feel my body. And i'm happy. Content. *sigh* .. it's good to have drugs. TooDLeS ♥