My heart has never hurt this bad. It feels like my soul has been shredded. I'm not who I used to be. I changed in a lot of good ways. But I also changed in a lot of bad ways. I can't handle all of this anymore. I know I fucked up. And now I have to deal with the consequences of my actions. But I didn't realize it would get THIS bad. I'm so tired of hurting. I'm so tired of crying. I'm just exhausted. And everyday its something else. Someone else is upset at me. Someone else is mad at me. Maybe I should just run away, and never come back. That way, none of your lives would be ruined. You could all be happy again. You'd eventually forget me. And I'd know, that I did the right thing, by leaving. Everyone says "Oh, I'd miss you if you did that". Yes, you would. For a lil bit. Eventually you'd get over it. Then you'd all be happy again. And that's what I want. I just want everyone to be happy again. I can't change the past .. but I can improve the future. TooDLeS ♥