whats wrong with me? i'm so jealous of HER and i don't know why she hasn't got anything i haven't well....'cept unlimited male attention...why is that? cos of the confidence or cos everyone knows she is more willing/more experienced? i just wanna be me. but i can't do while i'm competing. i'd give anything for my own friends. i try to be..i don't know....me but i end up just looking like i wanna be her,which i don't,i'd just like to have her confidence. god i can't wait for st.wilfrids,life will be so much easier when im not around someone who just makes me look the quiet blond, i can be me myself doing my own thing gettin new friends and developing my confidence without her i think that if i wasn't around her five days a week-then i'll stop looking like i just want to be her and you see the big problem is he likes her,i mean he met her first and liked her enough to ask her out.sometimes i feel as tho he just talks to me cos im like her or he just wants me to be like her...and that hurts. and most of all sometimes i just feel ive outgrown her and now im just being suppressed