tell me why i must put up with this? why do i stubbornly proceed to sit here and take this treatment when i could be tret so much better by someone else? am i completely stupid or am i just scared? scared to do or say something to him about what is happening and how he treats me? why can't i just speak up and do something about it,take control of my happiness. i know that i love him and if i leave him i'm scared of being unhappy and alone-and i'm alos scared of him being unhappy,even though i shouldn't care-the way he treats me it's obviuos he doesn't care how happy i am.i am a complete fool,so many people have told me he doesn't deserve me -that i deserve better and they don't understand why i'm with him.well of course they don't realise i love him so much....it's hard for me to say it's over. i have begun to question more and more whether or not i'm the only one-is he seeing/sleeping someone else-he never craves sex is that because he's already satisfied his craving? ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............. this is so hard,i need solid answers from someone-from him-i need to know how much he does wants me and is he prepared to commit to me. well-i will have to talk to him...... "My life is brilliant" My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled at me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. Yes, she caught my eye, As we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Flying high, And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last 'til the end. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, When she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.