So it's been AGES since i did a proper update,*looks through old entried* i don't think i've even mentioned breaking up wit caddy and that was ages ago(well at least a month ago) Right well here goes: Quite a few weeks ago i broke up with caddy and i can look anyone in the eyes and truely say that i did it for me not becuase someone else told me to or because i wanted to go out iwth anyone else.Nope i did it for me and only me. So the weekend after that i didn't go out cos i was really ill no idea what was wrong with me but it scared me shitless. Weekend after my fun started on Friday night instaed of the usual Saturday night cos me and Jo went out with some of her frineds from college,to be specific two very fine hunnies,and you know first night single night out in nearly 5 months i had to get in with one of them-his name was Tom and damn he was fine! Anyway on the Saturday night i went out for Chew's b/day had apretty good time-nothing spesh....woa!OK something spesh,no something very spesh happened i got in with Ste,and considering i'd been waiting for that kiss since April i was fair impressed-then we went to the Exchange,had a drink in there then missioned on back to vies...that was about it for that night. The weekend after that went away to wales with my mum and some of my fam.This was a much welcomed break after finishing first half term of college. By the way all this is happening while i'm having a totally crap time at college theres no point reporting on my weekdays cos the fair suck cock. So i come back from the caravan feeling revived and that night started talking to Jay(*Jay is a new friend of mine,he's best mates with spen and going out with Emily.*Emily is a girl from college who is in my G+P class)And got to know him pretty well and by Saturday we've become quite good friends(this is all over msn and phonecalls btw) I came home on the Tuesday,my dad went away on the Wednesday and Jo came round and slept on Wednesday night-there was beer,mini pizzas,wedges and Harry Potter.fun fun fun! Thursday morning Jo left mine after we made plans to go out that night,she was gonna go home nd come back around six. six comes and goes and she still not here,so i decide to start getting ready.By 9.30 im completely dressed,made up hair done bag ready and she's still not here,so i call her.She fell asleep,she sounds slightly drunk,she's round at Nicks-this comes as a bit of a shock as i didnt think she was gonna see him that day until night.She offers to meet up with me in Bee Knees but i inform her that because she didn't come round and bring her straightners with her i can't possibly go out-as far as im concerned shes being slightly inconsiderate and once again this year one of her bfs get in the way of our plans-so i say'i tell you what Jo you just stay in with your bf' she say'ok i will do' i put the phone down and haven't spoke to her since. Came of the phone and throught my usual stressy fit(were talking about shoes getting thrown across the room type fit) Friday came and Joe came round and the night started off pretty good-having a pretty good laugh,play fightin and all-then as i agreed to the previous week i slept with him. You see i agreed to be his 'lil fuck buddy ,but me thinks ill be giving that little extra curricular activity up-it can't possibly be good for me or my already-not-so-squeaky-clean rep. YES IM JUSTA SILLY LITTLE WHORE SOMETIMES. Saturday.i wasnt planning on going up to Emily's like i had agreed to the night before but after an hour on the phone to Jay how could i say no-and i can deffinitely say im glad i didn't. Beer,no food,SPEN,ppl i'd only just met,more beer and fags-fucking on it night. Ended up walking home with Spen, from Read to Whiteburk,bburn at 6.15 in the morning got there at 9.Go us,well go Spen actually cos he was the one who had the slightest idea were he was going. OH YEAH-finally met Spen btw,very interesting first meeting i have to say. Nothing much happened on the Sunday. Week at college was eventless as usual except i,as expected,failed(as in U)on my Biology. Never mind. Nothing much has happened this weekend which fair sucks...tbh-oh no i saw Shell and Abi for the first time in ages,we went and saw Corpse Bride which was fair cool. Had a good chat with them about random stuff and it was like i hadn't been away from them for two mins-being my usual wierd and goofy self(for those who only know me as being shy and quiet,you'd prolly think i was a completely different person when i was around them) So on the way back from Cinema i was thinking-eventhough im with some of my oldest friends and although i have my new friends i still miss her.Jo i'm talking about for those who've just joined us.We were once in Haslingden after her sister had just done my hair and we were talking about how things are between me and her.It's like this:we may fall out all the time and we do have are moments(even days)when we say we hate each other and it may take ages for us to make up cos were both stubborn bitches but we WILL make up cos thats how it goes.But this time,this time seems different it seems like were not going to make up because were not around each other as much as we used to be.Were at college now,we never see eachother cos we dont go to the same place 5 days a week.I don't like this feeling....i need a hug :( Another person im missing is Caddy.I find myself always thinking about him and occasionally frogetting that we broke up and wanting to call him to talk to him. :( I miss him. And i miss Jo.