Fumbling Towards Ecstasy Possession Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time the night is my companion, and solitude my guide would I spend forever here and not be satisfied? and I would be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away and after, I'd wipe away the tears just close your eyes dear Through this world I've stumbled so many times betrayed trying to find an honest word to find the truth enslaved oh you speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes my body aches to breathe your breath your words keep me alive And I would be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away and after, I'd wipe away the tears just close your eyes dear Into this night I wander it's morning that I dread another day of knowing of the path I fear to tread oh into the sea of waking dreams I follow without pride nothing stands between us here and I won't be denied and I would be the one to hold you down kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away and after, I'd wipe away the tears just close your eyes... Well now i've got the time and the botherdness to write this...i shall tell you about new years.(please except my apology for all those i insult in this im feeling a little stressed out atm) started off-nearly couldn't go out cos Jaimie said we couldn't sleep at his...so im like f**k this, my night aint being ruined just cos some little d**k head has decided we can't stay there.So got everything aranged and ended up being in Blackburn town centre at 7 o'clock.Went to Barcode,Cellar back to Barcode saw Ste :D finally gave him his band thingies back...he seemed very happy.Also saw Chew-absolutely f**ked-twas very funny.Went to vies-which to start off with was fabulous little slow with the whole me and Ste thing but soon sorted that out.Danced a little,drunk alot sat on ste's knee and got lots of kisses :D and love bite.When 12 o clock came was kissing Ste :)what a way to celebrate the new year....THEN saw Caddy and Jo coming down the stairs(grumble) wasn't happy at all.Talk to Ginge about it and a couple of minutes later Caddy appears-he wants to talk to me :( really didnt need to hear what he had to say kinda put a dampner on my night any way got heard the part that i wanted to hear and i wanted to tell him that i understood but i couldn't cos i was too busy crying(which is soooooo his fault cos he told me when was drunk!) so yeah went to look for ste tried to keep it together but i didnt work burst out crying again and got a big cuddle off him :D and THEN...he asked me out!!! :D which i'd really wanted him to do(you know the whole asking me out on the first day of the year thing)and he did it in the most classiest,subtle way ever....heh he asked me in vies which i didnt really want(but we can't have everything can we? ut he did it at exactly the right moment when i needed him to do it) Everything was great until i saw those getting in with each other which,personally i think was waaaaaay out of order and totally insensitive you might not think so but this is my diary so nuh. When it came to closing time i was stood at the djs box and caddy was there he decided he was gonna drag me into a hug..went to find Jo who was with caddy by the time i found her really wanted to slap her but just told her i was leaving with ste and i'd be at the Cellar. Overall when i got out of vies i realised why i hated it so much. Wet to the Cellar hung around Ste for a bit but he was talking about stuff i had no clue about and i as trying to hug him but he kept moving while he had his arm round me which made it hard. Went to find Jo,found to friends from college instead had a little dance then found Jo she was soooo off her head so i took the chance to say what i wanted to.Told her i wasn't mad at her(i was i was being sarcastic)then just told her if she needed me i'd be upstairs. Went to get pizza with the others when i got back couldn't find Jo(worried loads)then went upstairs again lead against Ste while he had the most bizarre head f**k convo ever i was like 'k whatever tried to fall asleep but it didn't work:( Went to find Jo again Left Cellar with Ste finally got him on his own which i'd wanted all night....erm..went for a mish...and that was IT! Decided that i needed to get in a taxi cos Ste was going home and i didn't want to be on my own:( That was about it..Jo stayed at jaimies afterall she came home in the morning and acted like nothing was wrong...so i was like Kacy,leave it and calm the hell down.so i just sat back on the sofa and waitedfor my dad to get there. The End Since Sunday i've had one short not all that friendly email from Ste.... :( think i'm gonna send Caddy a message. bubyex