I really have to start typing these things earlier in the day… by the time I get home and shower I have really no desire to write. I feel so utterly dull lately I haven’t had much of life. But, I did get to see Cait today and went for and adventure drive. We did a lot of talking as usual which always makes me feel good. She said something though today that I thought was the truest thing I’ve pretty much ever heard, she said something like “after you’ve had your first serious love you spend the rest of your life trying to recapture that feeling.. sometimes even with that person” Its so true and yet so sad. I feel like part of me is always going to be chasing that feeling and thus my ex. I think that’s why it has been so impossibly hard for me to part ways. I really do feel like we are the same sometimes Cait and I. I know she is going to go through the same thing I went through with my last boyfriend. I wish so much I could protect her from how much its going to suck.. I hope this is the one time we won’t be like “this”. Moving on, work was actually kind of fun tonight of course I ended up chatting with Chelsey most of the time. She is thinking about getting an internship in L.A. this summer and offered me a place to stay. I think she really wants me to come live with her… but I can’t do that so I promised her to visit. It’s the best I could do and I’m really excited about it regardless. I’m going to lend her Hitch Hikers Guide To The Galaxy so hopefully we can have some more in common then Angelina Jolie and where we work. In other good news my Dad finally started painting my trim… so I might actually be able to move my stuff back at least by this Sunday. Which is really awesome I’ve got a lot of ideas for redecorating my room. I think it’s going to look really neat when I’m finished. Also my Dad took me to pick out glasses today in Dover and I found a really wicked black and green pair. Ooh and not to mention my Dad also bought milk, yay cereal! I finally got to see the property in Smyrna to its really beautiful I can see why my Dad likes it. Its covered in trees currently but it is a sloping hill that goes down to a river… its really lovely. I definitely wouldn’t mind living there. So yeah my Dad has pretty much been rocking it out lately while my Mom is being a complete and utter uber bitch. If only I could get a happy medium.