How did I ever make it through the other day? I'm not sure I'll ever know. But, I do know that I have more will power then I ever thought. I rode seven miles on the bike yesterday, seven. Maybe that is not big to anyone else but myself but I care not. I rode mostly uphill with a good amount of wind resistance. I did not think I would make it home and I had to walk the bike up some of the hills because the wind was just to strong. I made it though, and then collapsed on my bed for a half an hour. After the rest though I felt alright even a little exhilarated despite my bodies exhaustion. I waited around then just wasting time till I went to the musical with my friends. It was pretty good, the musical that it. I really love when everyone can get together in a group its just so much fun. Its been a long time since I've really been able to cut loose. I went to the waffle house with Sheila afterwards and waited around for the others. By the time they got there though we were ready to go. I got home around one thirty in the morning, I thought I'd fall asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow but I ended up tossing and turning for hours. I just had so many thoughts coursing through my head; I couldn't get it to all shut down. I am becoming increasingly exhausted by the way my life is going. I need to change the path I�m on and face the fact that I'm not getting anywhere on this one. Safety isn't always the best option just the easiest. I realized the main reason I stayed in Delaware for school, is well, just not around anymore. I've got Cait to think about now though, I feel like she is going to DSU mainly because of me. I would feel like an ass abandoning her there, to do who knows what and who knows where. I just want to be out of Delaware badly and escape all of these reminders, forever. I think if I go now I'll never come back. I've got a long rode ahead of me.