A lot of things have been running through my mind lately… everything is just happening so fast and yet… its not. Brandon came over last night and it was great. When I’m with him I feel the world for him. But, the morning after all of the doubts and insecurities come rushing back in. The last thing I need to do is become seriously attached to someone, like I was before, and begin making serious decisions as if they‘re going to be some major fixture in my life. The scary thing is I’m not even sure I have the capacity to become attached to him. I don’t know what changed. I really just need to take some time to get out of Delaware and get my head together. I don’t even know what I want to do with myself in even a minor capacity. Or, is this all because I’m just ridiculously afraid, afraid of getting hurt again, and the devil I know is better then the devil I don’t. To hell with the devil, I need to find my own way.