Its been a shitty couple of days. I'm trying to recall what exactly happened Saturday night, given that I was rather drunk it hasn't been an easy thing to do. The few things I can remember I don't really care for. I've been trying so hard to be good friends with Dan, and have that be all. But, he's always had feelings for me- feelings I never once returned. I thought after this last talk we were finally on the same page, but I dunno I guess I was wrong. I'm not sure what to do or how to handle this. I don't want anything to be blown out of proportion, but mostly I don't want to lose someone I thought was a good friend. Its not my fault. I didn't try to kiss him, he tried to kiss me or whatever the fuck he was trying to do. The only thing I can be sure of is my gut instinct to not trust him. I wish this wasn't happening. I never would have gone drinking with him if I didn't think I could trust him. He said he was ok with just being friends. I don't believe in blaming alcohol for actions, it doesn't make you do anything, just more likely to do what you already want to. Maybe he wasn't as over it as he had thought. Its a really shady situation. I pretty much told him I didn't want to see him again, and I think that was the right decision. I don't know what else to do.