So I’m not going to start this off by bitching about how much I don’t feel like writing this tonight, because the truth is once I get started I don’t want to stop.. it’s just a matter of getting started. It’s kind of been a tough day for me between little fights with my Mom and how I haven’t talked to or hung out with any of my friends lately… and its all starting to get to me. Sometimes I just don’t feel like I’ve got any friends at all. I mean it even feels like Cait’s acting funny. It’s really rare that we ever don’t have plans and this week it just doesn’t feel like she has time for me or wants to. I always thought that as long as I had her for a friend… everything would be all right. I kind of have gotten past that though at the moment. It’s just hard though. I haven’t really spoken to anyone all day and I don’t think that’s helping any. I just have to remind myself to not get stupid and bitter and let it go. I mean I take advantage when people really do one be around me and push them away… then complain when their not there any more. So I need to stop getting angry and upset and start working on being a better friend. Besides I’m sure the fact that I couldn’t fall asleep or stay asleep last night definitely is playing a role. In other news I actually made it through an hour-long bike ride today. I’m not even tired or sore or anything. So tomorrow I’m going to get up a little earlier and try and ride a little longer. I’m hoping by the time summer rolls around I’ll be fit. Also I’m trying to eat a little better to. Although its hard considering that all my mom buys is junk. Right now though I think if I can keep on riding and writing and ignore all the rest of this petty nonsense everything will be fine.