hey wats up? nada here. i feel so depressed rite now. i hate being like this. i need 2 stop thinking bout my ex that y i think im so depressed all da time. i was suppposted 2 go c ashlee simpson 2day but when i called the radio station 2 ask when she was performin they said 5 so i figued out i wont make it. i texed my friend Jeanine n she said dat she didnt go on yet. wtf i could have gone! ahhhhhh!! yesterday i was so happy. there is a kid that i cant decide weitha i like him or not. well i saw him yesterday... @ firat he avoided him a lil... then as my friends n i were gettin reeady 2 go out... i finished 1st so i decided to lay down on the bed. next thing i kno is he jumps in the bed n lays on me. he started holding me. it felt really good bc i havent been held like that in a while.. next thing we kiss!!!! i was wow!! i was sooo surprised but happy.. he had a gf but i guess he broke up w/ her or we. idk if hes liening but HE KISSED ME!! no i guess i kind of liek him again. hes hard to tell. i cant stop thinking bout him. hes goin on vaca 2morow till i think the 24th. im gunna miss him. i asked him if ne thing was gunna happen between us n he dont kno. i told him 2 take his time w/ his answa. i just hope he dont take a LONG time.. lol.. i hope he asks me out. i will hopefully b able 2 get ova my ex by being with him. PLEASE CROSS UR FINGERS 4 ME! thanks. but neways its hot n boring 2 day. i worked n dat was about it. i hate being depressed. it makes me not want 2 do nething. n the song im listen 2 doesnt help but u like it so. my best friend jacalyn has been going thru sum issues. she is severly depressed and she has me wiked nervous. she called me a couple of nights ago freaking out. she was like im gunna do sumthin 2 myself. i was jac dont. she got really nervous and called her sis. i was gunna cry bc i was so scared. im still scared for her. i got her a card and wrote her a nice lil note 2 try 2 cheer her up and make her feel betta. she read it and gave me a hug and was like im carryin it evry where i go... she keeps showing ppl. im glad that made her happy! i just hope that sum 1 can make me happy and do sumthin like that 4 me. but o well. im hopin to be gettin a new phone soon. well thats it for now. lata Sade- By Your Side You think I'd leave your side baby? You know me better than that You think I'd leave down when your down on your knees? I wouldn't do that I'll do you right when your wrong I-----ohhh, ohhh If only you could see into me oh, when your cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me When your on the outside baby and you can't get in I will show you, your so much better than you know When your lost, when your alone and you can't get back again I will find you darling I'll bring you home If you want to cry I am here to dry your eyes and in no time you'll be fine You think I'd leave your side baby You know me better than that You think I'd leave you down when your down on your kness I wouldn't do that