I am. I am a real girl. I am not going to cheat on him because he won't have sex with me. I'm not going to leave him because he won't have sex with me. Sex isn't everything to me. It's an act of showing some sort of love. And yes, I agree with Lauren, there is other ways of showing someone you love them. I love this man and I will never fucking leave him unless he cheated on me. That's not going to happen so guess what? We're stuck with each other. I like having sex because of how it makes me feel mentally and emotionally. Not because of how it makes me feel physically. Having sex makes me feel wanted. It makes me feel sexy and attractive when he pursues me like that. That's all. I do it for my own mind. Yes, it feels good. It feels extremely good. But I don't want to do it all the time either. Sex before marriage is somewhat wrong according to the Lord, but hey.. Guess what? Everyone's doing it. I know that if everyone jumped off a bridge, I wouldn't follow but damn, if it was that much of a sin, don't you think there would be less sex? Anyway. That's not my point. If he doesn't want to have sex again until we're married, so be it. We have our entire lives to make love to each other. He thinks I think otherwise. I don't think we're going to survive this one. I seriously don't think so this time. Whatever happens, happens for a reason, right? Okay then.