So I am single again. Anthony broke up with me and I hate him for it. But even more so I hate him for being around so much still. His computor is still at the apartment and to make matters worse it's at my apartment now- but he has moved out of his apartment into a whole different building but his computor is still here. Damn him. Plus he is sitting right here and I can't type anything and he has not even noticed my hair. His friend Josh did but not him... man I really fuking HATE men. What I really hate is that I till have feelings for him. I hate how I want to be everything he wants but can't. I hate how there is nothing I can do about it. It's times like this that I just wish I were dead. I don't really feel like anyone really cares about me and I wish I could go away forever and not have to deal with this shit anymore. Or maybe I could find a guy who wants to actually be with me. Yeah right. Like that will ever happen. Not in a million years. Damn me. Damn him for being everything I have ever wanted. Damn everything.