So this last week or so has been pretty bad for me. I was really sick last week. My phone got turned back on on Friday and this past Wednesday I lost my job. I tired to call Anthony on Friday last week but he did not answer so I left him a message. I still have not heard from him... I still think about him but a lot less than I did before. I think it might be best for me to not talk to him for a while. I really wish that things were different in my life. I wish I had a car and a job and more money to make Joe happy. I love Joe so much and feel so bad for how things have been going. I want nothing more than to just be with him and make him happy... he told me he has a suprise for me tomorrow. I am pretty anxious to see what it is. He has been planning this for sometime now and I am beginning to think that it is a pretty big deal. I love him with all my heart and really hope that we are together for a long time. Well I will let you know later what happens...