More dreams about Anthony last night. This one killed me cos he kissed me in my dream. I really wish I knew what they mean. I mean it really sucks to be trying so hard to get over him yet my dreams won't let me. I really want nothing than to just get over him and move on with my life but for some reaosn I believe that I am not supposed to- hence the dreams. I honestly think that my dreams are trying to tell me something but I can't figure them out. I mean it is not like I can go see him since he lives so far away. So that is not it. I wish I fucking knew.