Yeah. I hurt. Men suck. I want to leave Binghamton forever. I don't ever want to come back here. I want to move and find a real boyfriend who wont use me for sex. I want to feel loved again. I have not felt that in over 2 years. I hate how I feel right now. My heart hurts so much. And I mean that in a physical way. I think I have something wrong with my heart. I have been having chest pains for 2 days now. Man... this sucks.