About a week ago I got a job at the Press and Sun Bulletin doing the inserts. I love my job. I mean it can be pretty boring but that's why I love it. I get paid $7.00 an hour to do the easiest job I have ever done. Plus the people there are fun and actually nice. There are all sorts of people there- many guys from ages 18 to probably 60 and I can get along with every one of them. There are 2 girls that are 18, then there is me at 26, then there are women who are older. Now, my only problem is Steve. He is 18 and so sweet. He is my problem- er rather- the reason I look forward to work. But I consider that to be a problem. I am dating Joe and I love him very much but since I have been working there I have developed sort of a crush on Steve and, I think he feels the same way- he asked for my number on Friday after we all got out of work and he actually called me yesterday and invited me to the movies with some friends of his. I told him I could not go because I had to work at my other job so he postponed the movies until tonight just so I could go. I love Joe very much and don't want to ruin what I have with him but I can't help but like Steve. There is something about him that makes me like him a lot. I liked him from the moment I laid eyes on him the very minute I walked into my first day at work on Wednesday. It's times like these that I wish I was single-or, at the very least, not in love so I could just end it. But as it is I have not been in love in a long time and I plan on keeping Joe around for as long as he is supposed to be around. I really don't want to ruin this but as it is, the feelings I have for Steve are uncontrollable- almost like something has forced me to like him and won't let me not like him. I mean he's 18! He's 8 years younger than me! I have had BAD experiences with people that young and have recently been keeping myself from liking anyone that young. Joe is going to be 22 in November and I love that. People that young just don't want to get married. He doesn't even know how old I am. No one at work does but Dan and that's because I trust him not to tell anyone. I don't want anyone to be judging me for how old I am. I want them to get to know me for who I am... damn this sucks. I wish I could just not like him, but that seems to pe impossible. I guess we will see what happens if he calls me today.