So I hate it when everything I want is out of my reach. I hate how my heart is broken because of someone who never really cared about me. I hate how I don't think I will ever love anyone ever again and how the only person I want to be with is no longer talking to me. I hate how I can't even get my ex-boyfriend to look me in the eyes let alone have a conversation with me or how I think that my whole life up until Tuesday was just one big lie and a complete waste of my time. I also hate how I put so much effort into something that failed miserably and that I should know by now that nothing in my life ever works but I never learn anyway and I am probably going to continue to get hurt no matter what I do. Maybe I should just give up? I got dumped for a damn video game and a life of childish bullshit all because he was afraid to commit. Fuck all this.