So I partied in Iowa City last night and they made me drink beer...blak gross! but that's not what I'm gonna write about right now... Alright, so I came home instead of partying with my brothers and their friends 'cause I thought I could hang with Steve...his phone isn't on and I don't wanna be a creep and call it 50 times, so I called it twice, left one message and that's all I can do....so very very sad....one of the reasons I came home instead of staying in Iowa City or just going back to Ames was 'cause I thought I was gonna get a chance to see Steve.... ahhh...this is making me think that he doesn't like me...I hate not knowing this stuff. v. sad AHHHH my parents! you think they would be glad that I decided to come home...and I'm sure they are but god! so we're sitting on the couch watching tv, some funny old movie and they start talking to me about when I'm gonna drive home. I say that I hadn't really thought about it and I was just gonna decide when the time came(either late sunday or early monday) and my dad goes off on this tangent about safety and my car breaking down. I'm like what the fu..?!?! seriously...you'd think that the way he's tlaking my car is going to break down in the middle of nowhere, I'm going to be stranded and then raped...ahhh! I was like whatever, I don't really care I'm just gonna do whatever i feel like....he's all like well you always do..whatever whatever I do what I want ahahha but ya...and of course everyone is either working(Jelly) at school(Lauren, etc.) or their whereabouts are unknown(Steve) well, I guess Jackie is here now, I could call her...I should do that....aight well I think I'm gonna go do that and mb visit Jelly. It's jsut occured to me that I could call Josh to find out where Steve is...is that going too far?? mb he doesn't want to see me. off to the dark side