Alright--so summer is awesome and everything with no school and the fantastic weather, and I know it's only June...but I want it to be over already. Besides Aaron Sue being here, most things suck. Steve isn't here I can't seem to get away from the nawing feeling in my stomach that the presence of my mother gives me. Her never-ending list of things for me to do and inadequacies that I possess. Work is ok, and I'm getting used to it, but I still feel like I don't fit in. I miss Steve The funny thing is that I'm not excited about going back to school either. Well, I am 'cause I'll get to see Maggie and Steve...but after talking to Steve last night about my last year and everything that needs to be done I'm scared. GRE's interships lab assistant work class-load fitting in time to relax fitting in Steve time without ignoring school stuff I need to seriously start thinking about if I can handle doing my undergrad in four years or if I want to lighten my load a little and do it in either 3 or 4 more semesters instead of 2. It's summer--you aren't supposed to have to think about serious future things, unless you want to...and I don't. :( I don't want to grow up. It's no fun. So much shit to do today. Mow the lawn, start and finish the list my mom left me (which includes such things like clean the kitty litter, vaccuum the steps, run the dishwasher, etc) all crap...then work from 4:30 to 11. I don't think it's going to be busy tonight--I like being able to take my time so I don't screw up or get lost, but I also don't like just standing around b/c there aren't any deliveries and I'm useless and can't do anything else. I think I'm just in a bad mood in general today. go figure fall in love with a smile p.s. shut up Robin ;p ur off in France, eat some frog legs...don't be silly