I'm still home...My mom and I jsut got back from a long day at the farm and I'm beat...haha nvm oh right, so last night I called Jelly and I went to visit her at work(target). she was really pissed 'cause she wasn't gonna get off of work till about 11 instead of 10. so I went to a little coffee shop called Miguel's something of other and read my book "The Trench" for about an hour until Jelly called me at 11 when she was walking out of work..We went to her house so she could change out of her work clothes and then we headed over to Jesse and Steve's apartment. Now I had no idea what we were going to do and what Steve's reaction to me being there was going to be. right, so we get there and there are these oh-so as cute as ever but as 'treat me like nothing happened' as ever too. which is fine but totally sucks. It was fun and all hanging out there, but I really wanted some alone time with Steve so I could talk to him. I really think that he only thinks of me as a friend who he jsut has happened to make-out with while having some drunken fun. V. sad news for me, but I can deal. It would've been cool for soemthing to happen with me and Steve..oh well, and I don't REALLY know what he thinks so I could be totally wrong....once I think about it though..we don't really have anything in common..hmmm...that doesn't really matter that much to me though...as long as we like spending time with each other and sharing what we like with each other it's all good... boy am I tired...so that's my Steve thing...today was fun..I played donkey Kong country 2 for forever with Aaron and then football with Aaron, Jan and Adam...that was a blast...then we ate (always great food at Grandma's) then HUGE, I mean HUMUNGUS(sp?) bonfire...we are a family who likes games, food and fire...haha fun times at the farm. I cannot wait for Thanksgiving.,...It's my favorite holiday: FOOD FAMILY this year MY HOUSE oh it's the best when it's at my house. That means that there is room for everyone to stay, I love my house, everyone else loves our house, and it's just an all around good time. But Thanksgiving always is... FOOTBALL FOOD CARDS oh the list goes on....eeee!!! Well, I better head off to bed 'cause I gotta get up early and drive back to school...bah, oh how I wish I could fly...or jsut snap my fingers and I'm there, but then I would need to snap for my car and all my stuff..hmmm...too tired..goodnight! off to the dark side