I'm more than embarassed..I'm mortified...and this doesn't really ever happen to me...I can embarrassed, sure, but I get over it in like 10 mins...no, I'm mortified by the way I've acted and the wy I feel and just how dumb I am. ok here's the story: So I have this huge weird crush on hott trumpet guy, yes nameless..anyway, so I'm on my way down to the locker room in the music hall to get my cello and put my coat and bookbag away when I notice that htg is playing in a nearby room with a band, so I'm standing in the hall not realizing that I'm totally just standing there gawking at him when we turns his head and we make eye contact..what do I do?? hmm?? ya I don't just act cool or keep looking but I look down agknowleging(sp?) that I've been caught staring and turn to walk down the stairs to the locker room.... Oh but it gets worse...I run into my friend Brian from High school and think, "hey, he's in band, I'll ask him if he knows htg" yeah so Brian doesn't know him, but goes into the room to see who I am talking about..then he drags to the very place I was caught staring and is like "we are going to wait here til he comes out" yes, so by this time I am about to hyperventilate because I get so ga-ga over this stupid guy...I chicken out and have to leave before I have a heart attack..I turn and walk down the stairs again, just as htg comes out of the room to walk down to the locker room too...so then to act as casual as I can, which isn't very, I stop at the drinking fountain so I am now behind him instead of ahead of him...THEN I stop to talk to Laura(friend who plays the bass) and he walks by again!! ahh! oh still not done...so then I go to symphony and I am fine, ya know, not a spaz...and the strings get a break so I sit in the audience when Jane, a fellow cello gal, tells me that we can basically leave now because we don't play the next peice...so I sit by Laura to tell her and who has a perfect few of htg...ya me...anyway so when they stop playing, I go up onstage to get my cello and bow, wave 'bye' to Laura, then go to walk out the door that is right next to htg...and who is discreetly looking my way?? ya htg!! althought you might think that this is a good thing..I think he was looking to see if I was going to look as I went out..which I sort of did, but sort of just glanced(ya know, not be obvious, ut I proly was) GOD!!! I am such a loser and now he proly thinks I'm stalking him... Karen said she wants to come to symphony and tell him I like him.. my response?? he'll say Megan who? ya, I'm so pesimistic...but I can't help it since I'm such a freakin' spaz!! anyway, I need to calm down again and read some psych...also I think I need to find a way to act somewhat calm around him..ya know..not like a freakin' jr. high stalker...ya that's all I have to say about that...comments on my retardedness? off the deep end...for real this time