i've been reading people's diaries.. well, parts of them. and i've come to a conclusion:
my life sucks.
it's just not.. interesting. like at all. I read about all these people going to parties and getting drunk. that's not really for me, but it's SOMETHiNG. i've got nothing. I don't even hang out with my friends as much as I could or as much as i'd like.
it's my fault. I never ask them to.
seriously though.. i'm soo sick of everything right now.
school, most importantly. five days in (I missed one day, too) and i'm just soo over it. I was over it before it even started. and that's not going to change.
this year's gonna suck.
I hate change. everyone knows that. but I really want change right now. BiG CHANGE. in a good way.. that benefits me.
because i'm the most selfish bitch you'll ever meet. i'm really lazy, too. everyone makes that a point.
I probably shouldn't write like this though.. people will start thinking i'm suicidal again.
what the fuck.
12:40am