I feel this is going to be a long entry.
Ashley made my hair sexy sexy today.
I got two CDs at Best Buy: Take This To Your Grave (Fall Out Boy) and Nine Reasons To Say Goodbye (A Day In The Life). I already had Take This To Your Grave downloaded, but it's always better to have the real version. A Day In The Life is JT Woodruff's band before he was in Hawthorne Heights (if ya'll didn't know that).
I really like Unfaithful by Rihanna. I'm listening to it on my iPod so I can listen to it loudly. iPods = hearts.
I'm becoming avidly obsesed with Hawthorne Heights, haha. It's wonderful.
You know that feeling you have when you're happy-go-lucky and everything is just dandy in your world and then all of a sudden your friend someone you know tells you something? Something that hurts. And your world is tearing apart. It's not even that big of a deal but it keeps happening. And every time your world is sinking a little more. And you feel things.
You can't hate your friend that person. They didn't really do anything wrong. They just didn't do everything right. You don't tell them of course. And it bottles up inside. You hint that it upsets you, but they're not getting it. To the point where you break. Your world is underwater because of their global warming.
So now you're feeling like you shouldn't care at all. And you want to feel like you shouldn't care anymore. And you do something that will take that uncaringness away. And it hurts you. Emotionally and physically. And you're wondering why you did it in the first place. And now anyone who knows has a different perspective of you. You've changed their opinions. In a bad way.
Now you're on your way to recovery. And you're really hoping that it'll work. And you won't feel like that again. And then your friend someone you know does it again. Again and Again. You're really hoping you learned your lesson from the last time. But you don't know if you did. And it scares you more than anything else...
3:45AM.
lol jk(it is cuter tho)
Courtni