when life is empty
with no tomorrow
loneliness starts to call
baby don't worry
forget your sorrow
'cause love's gonna concur evil
I think I like being selfish. I'm always bragging about it. What's to brag about being selfish? Nothing, really. But I do. And I don't care. I'm living with it. Same goes with being stubborn and lazy. I brag about my bad qualities. I don't think I have that many good qualities. I'm not really caring. I don't care about what's going on with you. I only care about how it affects me. There's the selfishness again. I think that's my strongest quality. You can't tell me I do care. I'm the only one that knows if I care or not. I think i've surrounded myself with people who do care so I don't have to. Except her. She doesn't care. I know she doesn't. I wish she did. Maybe I don't. I don't know. I always say I don't know. I shouldn't. I always say it when I don't really want to say what i'm thinking. I'm just rambling on in this entry. Uhh.. I'm listening to Disturbed now. Haha this is just one big paragraph. HAHAHA. I'm going psycho. I really think I am. I talk to myself big time. I'm not kidding, either. I did it alot last night/this morning. I do it when i'm alone. Sometimes I do it when people are nearby and then I get embarrassed. I don't know. See I said it again. I ALWAYS SAY IT. I can't help it. I don't know is so overused. They shojld make up a saying that means the same thing. I DON'T KNOW sounds dumb. I'm dumb. People are gonna not read this because it's one big paragraph. MWAHAHA. Everyone's a loser anyways. I'm a FXCKING LUNATIC. Haha Nelly and the St. Lunatics. I think i'm really bored. I just cleaned my room for five hours. It's not done yet though. I still have to take care of my clothes, cut up my magazines WITH A SHARP KNIFE, make collages with those pictures, and then put everything up on my walls in the perfect order. It's going to look so amazing when it's done. Maybe i'll put a picture on here and MySpace. Yes. Haha I woke up at 4PM today. That's insane. UHHH I saw Jared Leto on My So Called Life this morning at 5:30 MMM. I feel my mind is going to say something I can't hide. I think I took that from a Green Day song but I might be mistaken. Haha I wonder if anyone will really read this. Probably just skim over it or something. i bet this is going to be really long. It looks like a jubilee of words but i'm really using correct grammar. So it shouldn't be hard to read. Besides the fact that it's ONE HUGE PARAGRAPH MOTHAFXCKAS. I'm so done with these people. THEY'RE SO FXCKING SELF ABSORBED. Probably why i'm so psychotic. It feels like i'm talking to myself when I tell you things. Okay I think i'm done. YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! (I'm listening to "Yeah!"). CELINE TELL THEM WHAT YOU TOLD ME. THAT'S NOT WHAT SHE TOLD ME. CELINE'S A LIAR. SHE'S LYING. LIAR. Sometimes I wonder why.
You got it. I want it. I'll do whatever it takes. YOUR LOVE IS WHAT MAKES MY HEART BREAK :[
I HATE.
When you're trying to talk to someone and they're watching tv. They turn up the volume and completely ignore you. Both my mom and brother do that. It makes me mad. I guess i'm not important enough. THEY NEVER LISTEN TO WHAT I'M SAYING. I'm gonna tell them i'm going to kill myself tomorrow to see what they say. Probably just give me a look and tell me to go away.
12:25AM
You got it. I want it. I'll do whatever it takes. YOUR LOVE IS WHAT MAKES MY HEART BREAK :[
I HATE.
When you're trying to talk to someone and they're watching tv. They turn up the volume and completely ignore you. Both my mom and brother do that. It makes me mad. I guess i'm not important enough. THEY NEVER LISTEN TO WHAT I'M SAYING. I'm gonna tell them i'm going to kill myself tomorrow to see what they say. Probably just give me a look and tell me to go away.
12:25AM
p.s. i love u and i do care about you, even if u are a self absorbed crazyass stubborn biotch.