It's funny how pretty much any love song right now can remind me of them. It really sucks, too.
I'm getting help soon. My mom has been so nice to me lately because of that. I think she's afraid it'll happen again. I promised her it wouldn't. But I break promises all the time so I really don't know. I wouldn't have told her at the time if I didn't think I was going to die. Anything that she would normally blow up on, she doesn't. And it's obviously because of that. She's calling constantly to check up on me when i'm alone. But I kinda like it. She'll stay on the phone just for the hell of it and talk to me. I don't really talk back enough I guess. I'm not used to it.
keep it inside,
the image portrayed
as if I couldn't stand losing
as if I couldn't be saved, no way
a small confession
I think I'm starting to lose it
I think I'm drifting away
from the people I really need
a small reflection
on when we were younger
we had it all figured out
'cause we had everything covered
now we're older
it's getting harder to see
what this future will hold for us
what the fxck are we going to be?
yeah pretty much.
11:30PM