okay so my readers (Ashley) don't like me writing lyrics. that's fine. but I don't have any other journal to write in, so deal =) and really, I would call them actually writing in my diary, SO THERE. and, that's how i've been letting everything out.. SO THERE again =) i'm a dork, yes.
so today I went to see my Grampy. he just had surgery on his heart this morning.. we got to the hospital and not too long after me and Mom got to go in to see him.
when I saw him, I was just shocked. I have never seen any of my family laying in a hospital bed like that.. and it really scared me. my Grampy's always been a very strong guy, and it just didn't make sense for this to happen. but, they say he's doing exceptionally well for what he had gone through. he actually got through is surgery in half the time it would normally take.
I did start to cry but tried to hide it and couldn't. Mom told me it was okay to cry and that it was scary seeing him in the hospital bed. I was still crying when I went out to the waiting room, but still tried to hide it. I heard Mom telling my aunts that I had started to cry.
I know that if Dustin or Ashley had seen him like that, they would've too. and I realized, it must be really hard for Mom. I mean, that's her dad.. she would've never thought this could happen to him; none of us would've. and although I don't care much for my dad, I would still be really scared if that happened to him.
so anyways, me and Mom were on really good terms all day today. when we fight, it's vicious.. but then when we're getting along, we're almost like best friends. I guess that's normal though with a mother - teenage daughter relationship.
11:24pm
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