what the hell does 'despondent' mean?
last night mom was a total bitch. I love how she only cooks dinner when Gene's coming over. and the fact that she only stays home when Gene's coming over. and I have to be supernice when Gene's coming over. I was.. until she pissed me off.
I had literally been waiting a week to ask her something because I really havn't seen her all that much in the past week. every night she's at Gene's, and then she was gone all last weekend. so I asked her to do something (which was to use her paypal or credit card) because I wanted to get some band shirts (two or three entries ago). well she totally acted like a bitch in front of Gene like she always does towards me and said that it wasn't happening. it's not like she was doing anything.. they were watching tv. big deal. so I flipped on her and went into the bathroom/computer room and closed the door harshly.
I really am beginning to see that she's soo selfish she doesn't care about anyone else's feelings. and she wonders why I am the way I am.
well last night I got soo caught up reading a fan fiction story about obviously Green Day.. it took me a few hours and I never got to my homework. so, this morning I decided I was going to stay home. I am sick, but not really.. I wasn't feeling the school vibe. i'm beginning to get obsessed with these stories.. I just love them, haha. it actually had me crying at some parts of it. so anyways, she flipped on me this morning and took a cord from the computer so that it wouldn't turn on because I changed the password so she couldn't get on and change the password before me like I knew she was going to do. so I ended up not being able to go on anyways until she got home.
today I finished Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.. it was a really good book. once again, someone died and I cried.
another thing, why does she flip on me like a psycho and then an hour later she can be the nicest person in the world like nothing happened. it pisses me off. I wish she would just stay mad at me because then it's hard for me to stay mad at her and I have to act like nothing did happen.
yes, this entry is really long.
I was looking on theclickfive.com and omg.. THE CLiCK FiVE ARE COMiNG BACK TO MAiNE. they're coming to the Bull Moose Music store in Scarborough, Maine on September 14th to perform and do a meet and greet. but, it turns out Scarborough is all the way down by South Portland.. which sucks soo bad.. I really need to find a ride down there.. I love them soo much, that would be amazing to meet them.. again =)
okay well i'm gonna go eat dinner and maybe work on my room and then watch the NFL Kickoff 'cause i'm such a huge football fan..
..or Green Day could be performing.
6:41pm
billy joe is pretty fucking sweeeeeet