I can read your mind
and I know your story
I see what you're going through
it's an uphill climb
and i'm feeling sorry
but I know it will come to you
Of course i'm listening to that song. It's only the best right now.
So i'm dumb. I was asked to join Reconnected Youth. And not because they think I have issues with family, drugs, etc. Just because i'm failing at school and life.
I really wish I did care. But I just don't. And I can't seem to no matter how hard I try. Homework has become the untouchable and something I just don't deal with. Don't tell me that I should do it, because that's so obvious it's dumb and it won't help.
I believe that i'm failing all my classes except Sculpture. But really, who fails Sculpture? I'm even failing Creative Writing. I don't think Reconnected Youth would help me, either. I'm not going to do it.
I'm failing school.
I'm failing myself.
I'm failng my family.
I'm failing my life.
It won't register until it happens. Oops.
Enough of that, though. Mom is still really sore. Her fxcker of a fiance wouldn't even come to help her while I was at school and Dustin was working, therefore she didn't eat ALL DAY. I feel like beating the shxt out of him. WHO THE FXCK DOES THAT?! You don't leave your significant other when they need you the most. She's not supposed to be getting up and walking around. Ergh.
Dustin got fired. He was really upset about it. I'm not even gonna ask what else could go wrong, because I can't take anymore. I only think about what would happen to me if something happened. I'm selfish. It's all about me. Everything. It's never my fault, either.
I'm trying to prove i'm a little more than useless. So far all i've seen are F's.
Don't surrender 'cause you can win in this thing called love.
10:25PM
if you ever need help with school work, just ask. I was like that with school for a long time. It's just apathy, pretty much. Doesn't mean you're 'stupid'. Just make sure to make the credits that you need. Senior year is coming :(. < 3
back in the stoneage of course.
rock on!
i think i need a shower.
yuk