So Mischy actually spoke to me in the hallway today- I think AJ is right and I really am just way to paranoid about not being loved enough. Because honestly, I really have so much love in my life it's fucking amazing I'm able to breathe through all of it. Some kids are considered ridculously lucky to through highschool with three or four true friends. Look at me. I've got like, 30. It doesn't matter if I'm not hott or spectacular, because fucking look at me. Look at everything I have to fucking offer. Fuck being perfect. Perfection is overrated. It's the flaws that make me who I am. I am an amazing, fabulous, wonderful GREAT PERSON and it doesn't fucking matter if I'm fat and it doesn't fucking matter if my mom doesn't love me and it REALLY DOESN'T MATTER WHAT ANYONE WHO DOESN'T LOVE ME THINKS. The fact of the matter is, is that I probably have more friends than the people who don't like me COMBINED and they are wonderful amazing people and it is great and fabulous. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT'S GONE ON IN THE PAST. FUCK THE PAST. Sure, I've got some major issues I've gotta deal with, but it doesn't fucking matter. I'll get through them. And when I come out on the other side, nothing is going to matter. I am going to be beautiful. Love, Miza