I don't really hate anyone, I don't understand why anyone hates me. I know I have a tendecy to mess things up for myself, but I didn't think that anyone really REALLY hated me, but I guess cecilia, (mike's sister, torsten's ex) hates me. She gave Amber a message for me when they spoke the other day: "Tell that bitch to stay the fuck away from my brother." Amber of course didn't come up to me and say it, but she did tell me that cecilia had said it. I don't get it. I don't think that cecilia is a bad person, I think she's done bad things, but so have I. I don't hate her because she's done them. I was only with Mickey (I didn't sleep with him) because I wanted him to love me the way I loved him. All those times, all those things I've done, they may have seemed pathetic, but it's just who I am. I don't hate her because of who she is, she shouldn't hate me because of who I am. I guess I'll just have to stop being friends with Mike. That's really hard to do, can someone tell me how to drop someone that I really love? I guess I'll just have to work on that one. I should just give her what she wants. I won't call Mike anymore, I won't talk to him, I won't see him in the hallway, I won't do anything. I just have to find a new group of friends- right? damn. I just fell in love with the group I had. bye brad. mike. aj. anna. alan. kyle t. woody. torsten- ahhhhh damn, I'm going to have to stop talking to torsten. HOLY HELL THAT FUCKING SUCKS I HATE THE WORLD. Stupid cecilia, messing up my life. I hate being the one who wants to fix it all.