I don't know what I was thinking. David is like the sweetest most amazing kid ever and I'm about to wreck all that? What the hell is the matter with me? I have no idea what I'm thinking. Josh is 2000 miles away. Josh has Kayla. Josh does not care about me. He does not give a shit about my love for him. Yea, all of that was lies, but that's not really the point. Except for the David being the sweetest kid ever thing. Because he is. DAMN IT I AM A FUCKING BITCH