Someday. Someway. I'll say no way to you, what else can I do? But this war, I swore, meant more before you see. When you meant everything to me. Time's up, I've had enough of you. There was a time and place, you smacked me in the face, it's not ok today, time's up I've had enough of you, NO WAY! How about giving me some courage? Anyone wanna lend me any? I should be able to say NO. Everyone has the ability to say NO. Everyone except me. When a guy approaches me, I have so many problems trying to say no. GOD. I let something happen on the way to fucking DYE! FUCKING DYE! I let something happen with my BEST FRIEND'S BROTHER. I let something happen with a guy who I KNEW HAD A GIRLFRIEND. I let something happen with patrick, I let something happen with Mickey, I let something happen with Ben. GOD WHY AM I SUCH A SLUT? WHAT HAVE I DONE THAT TURNED ME THIS WAY? What good, decent man is going to ever fall in love with someone who treats herself this way? HUH? NO ONE. NO FUCKING ONE. especially not the one I want, in the meadow, with my white skirt, tall grass, and guitar.