I cried when I read my letters, and then I saw everyone crying around me, and I smiled. I hugged Le Ann, and I smiled with Rachel. I went to go up to the sanctuary and I saw Andy. "Andy" I whispered. (which was funny because, there was no one else in the room.) "pssst, Andy, come here." he came closer. "come here!" (still whispering!) until he's so close I can hear him breathing. I whispered a very fast "I love you" into his ear, and I threw my arms around his neck and I hugged him and I kissed his cheek. "AWWWWWWWW" he said, "I love you too!" after, two minutes, of just hugging he said "look at you, you're so pretty!" I smiled my biggest shocked smile and just hugged him some more. "AWWWW, i gotta go up to the sanctuary, but I don't wanna stop hugging you!" he said. A chaperone (I forget what his name was, but I always called him Santa) saw us there, and came over and smiled at us. "Isn't she so pretty?" Andy asked, "Look at that smile! She's so cute!" Santa smiled "Yeah she is. Look, we made her blush." I laughed, and I buried myself into Andy's plaid shirt. His arms tightened around me, and I smiled one more time. "I love you." I said, and I squeezed my arms around his neck. "but you are a rector. And you have to do your rectorly duties." I didn't want to stop hugging him, he smelled so good, and I loved him so much. But I did, and we went upstairs and we sang our songs, and came back down to eat dinner. I sat with my friends, the people I had just met, and loved more than people I had known for years. That night, during the eucharist, I did a reading from Paul to the first corinthians. When we all went downstairs, Le Ann found me and said "When I heard you reading, I was like YEA BABY! That's my MIA!" and that's when I knew, I didn't ever want to leave. This group of people I had found, I wanted them to all stay around me, to come home with me and live in my back pocket, and when ever I needed the reassurance that I was loved by more than God, I would have them. There and forver. We can start a commerce by the sea, and we will all live there, and we will be guided by God and jesus and music and the holy spirit and everyone will sleep in the same room in one big pile, and we will never have a need for heat or blankets or shelter, we will just have each other and guitars and a stero and millions of cds and records and prayer books and our wooden crosses. And our feet will all be really nice, and we will hug and love and sing always. We will not mind that Mandi and Beth need battery powered hair straightners, but we will never start a meal made of our home grown fruit without them. it's a sad thought, maybe even pathetic, but I am what I am, and I am perfect the way I am because God made me that way, and if it is a sin to want the love of my amazing friends, than I am a sinner of the worst kind. I love you all. So much. More than anything, you are my sunshine and my light, and you shine brighter in my heart than anything ever before. I see everything so clearly now, and it hurts to much, but at the same time it feels so good. God bless you all, and I will see you soon.