so the day was a good day, but now im depressed, and i don't know why. ok thats a lie, i do but i dont want to admit it. the day was actualy pretty good, woke up went to kanar with chris, stacie, and stacy (right there dammit, right there) and everything was fine, i saw her before everything was fine i hung out with her the night before everything was fine and then now all of a sudden im depressed. its happening again. i just want this to stop. i dont want her to mean so much to me. i HATE It... Can anyone understand that. she has a new man, i'v had my new girl in between and i thought i was moving on, but apprantley, 4 months is not long enough to not talk, so ok then, maybe i need more time. leaving Kanar (which was a blast) me going home to babysit and the girls going to an afterparty just left me mad for some reason, and now im all depressed..fuckin eh. I can't make up my mind either, if it is the fact that stacy and stacie are taking more part in something i introduced them into, or the fact that its just her......... All of a sudden, i dont want to go to western, i dotn want to see everyone therre, i dont want stacie, stacy, chris, murphy, charliote, jon, chris m, and possibly other people aswell constantly with me... With my parents sepreating and my mom and lil bro moving out, and this and that, i dont know. i dont like myself right now. i dont like how weak i feel, how weak i am. i just...i just want life to flatline for a minute you know. i dont want anyone, i want to be alone. completely alone. and when im alone, i dont want to WANT anyone by my side. just once...i want to be happy on my own....