so i woke up this morning, after going to see rent with lauren (i cried, i laughed, you know) and i woke up this morning feeling good. just, hey, its the holidays, theres are going nuts and not much of anything is really happening. There is this intresting thing happening, the anxiety for everyone to leave really. most poeple arn't even home yet and im already excited what i am going to do when they leave. As i take steps away from everybody im hoping everyone will become happy for once. no more bitching dammit. lol. i feel good today can't explain it, but i felt as though i should write. i feel like drawing. i feel like picking up my guitar. This new year will mark the beginning of my personal transformation into what i want to be. and without anyone there to distract me, i will have no excuse to fail. we shall see who is pushing you then kevin. you will be in it for yourself. lets see if you can muster up some drive. anyway, gonna go shower, see melissa and go to work. but i woke up this morning, and im just more at peace. i hope everyone, is having a happy holiday and enjoying themselves. i wish everyone for the best. i hope everyone gets what they need, finds the love they've needed, finds themselves and can finaly be happy. i know this year has been a crazy one that has had more ups and downs than ceder point. but this is life. everyone continue to live well. the past is the past, it can't always be forgotten, but it can be overcome. the past were are decisions then, we ment it, we did it, and now we will live with it. we always are trying to do whats best, as humans, we are just prone to fuck up a lot. a Hole lot. also, dont be to quick to mix in the past either, remember, things left behind where left behind for a reason, even if you can't remember the reason now.