I woke up and could go back to sleep a little while ago, but I went to bed kinda early so it's all good. I had this feeling all of the sudden that I didn't really like John(ny C). And then of course I went back and forth in my brain figuring out why I did or did not like him. I figured out I like him because we have fun around each other, he's a sweet guy and he's real nice. He is a cutie, but I'm not usually the kid of person that actually likes someone just because they are cute. So whatever. I'm not going to overly push things, but let it all happen. In regards to Monday. Another reason that I know I was kinda like all...bahhhhh....has to do with Jim. I know I'm over him, that is for sure, but occasionally I miss what we had. And I guess it feels like nothing will ever be like that again. But I kindly reminded myself that in the beginning I didn't love him right away. It took time, as I'm sure it always does. So I will give this all a shot. I have feelings for John. I mean, well I like him, so why not. On an even more confuzing note. Elisa thinks that Tim may have a thing for me. I guess he was flirting with me the other day? I sorta picked up on it, but I dunno. He said he sorta liked this other girl, or well, he wasn't sure. And he knows I sorta like John. But we've gotten a lot closer. He wants to go pick apples this Thursday because we have school off. I'm sure he meant our whole Concert Choir crew (Lauren, Dave, John T., Me and him) but who knows. I think I want to go pumpkin picking though. Maybe find a corn maze or something. That would be fun. I would feel bad hanging out with both of them so much because if by some odd chance that they both liked me, I would have to choose. I guess not. I'm not one for dating more than one guy. Who knows. And the other day. Andy said that he wanted to grab my butt because it looked irresistable. I know. That is what I thought. I must go teach now. I have an English paper to write later. Maybe I'll hang out with people today, if not, there is tomorrow. And I will of course update. Oh, Elisa and I are back to getting along now. We cleared things up. And Brian asked her out. Awwwww. They are cute. But he seems to be very slow in the respect that they havent held hands yet. But it's only been 3 days. She is a little impatient, but I don't want her to rush things. I'ma gonna go now. S2 -cty