I don't really know how I feel right now. It's so contradictory. I am happy, I am sad. I feel excited, I feel dreadful. I feel love, I feel dislike. One part of me is so excited to go away, make new friends. Then part of me is excited so I can get away from all that is my life. Not to run away from problems, just to get rid of all that I am used to. It's not boring, but it is. I love these people but sometimes I just can't stand it. I know I'm going to miss my family and even when I'm getting into arguments with them, I feel guilty because I know I'll never have this time with them again. But I can't stand it anymore. Either way I loose and it's pissing me off. Less than a month. So much can happen in less than a month. But I don't think I want anything to. How odd is this.