So far I am really enjoying being back at school. I miss my family, of course, but it is nice to be back in that teenager/young adult place. It has been a little hard getting back in the swing of things. Like right now as I procrastinate writing a short paper who knows why. I guess my main problem right now is that I am having a heck of a time giving everything to God. I know that placing everything in his hands is what I need to do, and that by doing such I will be much happier. It's just I try, but I can't seem to do it. I'll try and then a week later I'll be obsessing over something or another and I'll realize that I need to place everything in his hands. I don't know what to say or think, but I just don't want to worry about some of these things because God will do what he wants. And I want what he wants, but since I don't know what he wants, I want whatever I want. Writing this out actually made me realize that it's not as bad as I thought it was. Wow. I'm kinda bummed that society has placed such an importance on women having boyfriends. I know I feel the pressure and I see it all around. It is engrained in our minds that the only way to be happy is to have a boyfriend, and that is just ridiculous. The sad thing is, we all buy in to this, in movies and music and tv. Girls love a romantic story, but in the end, they have unrealistic expectations about love. Furthermore, these messages blur the female view on men. I guess I should go write that paper. Sociology, oh sociology.