I'm really worried about Elisa. Really really. I just saw her profile and it had a new addition... *JM*. Of course, the first thing I would think of would be Josh Malison. I honestly think she needs to see someone. It couldn't hurt, and it's gotten way over anyones head to help now. I feel sad for Brian. He really loves her, and deep down I think she loves him. But she's so screwed up over Josh. Gah. It's not like Jenny or I could talk to her about it anyways, she'd just get pissed off I'm quite sure. We'd be nosey bitches and that would be that. I'd rather be able to be there when she falls then to get pushed away for attempting to not let her fall. This is so crazy. And messed up. I really know how she feels. And it takes time, but she is just trying too hard to rewind everything, and if you rewind it only hurts longer. *le sigh* Tonight is Angela Ferraris big party. I guess I'm wearing a dress. Said "dress to impress" whatever that means. Bart and Louis and Ricky will be there. It's kinda funny how the only people I'll probably hang out with are male underclassmen. I never cease to surprise myself. I don't think I am going to be a counselor at that music camp. It might be too expensive. We'll see though. Hopefully I will be able to go to Lutherlyn if I don't go to that. And then there is EUROPE! Yay. That should be exciting. *crosses fingers* I hope everything goes good. Plus I'm hopefully on a wiffleball team. "The Cheesey Poofs". I hope I can do that. 'Twould be muchos fun. Called Ryan last night. If he doesn't call back now, his loss. Aparently not mine. I hope he calls back though. He was awfully nice. Hah. I'm so pathetic. Oh well, it's better that way! That is it, and this is major long. I shall inform you of new quandries as they arise. (I just wanted to use the word 'quandries' in a sentence!) A Bientot! -Courtney