im so pleased with myself....i ate a whole apple last night and i kept it down....looks like im on the road to recovery im going to the gym today and then never again...im gonna beat this...im gonna prove them rong.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1.30am and i went out for a walk i got back at 9.30am. I needed to get out i couldnt see his face and i needed to go. So i walked and walked and walked for hours in the rain. It was beautifull. I needed to motivate myself. I cudnt alow myself to fall asleep....not when all i see is him...all i feel is the pain...so i walked and walked and walked...