I wish gravity would just fuck off and let me float out into space where i have nothing to worry about m fucking sick of this corrupt world that we live on. why not just get in a rocket and go to mars and live there with no problems/ im sorry this makes no sence. im too fucking high. Im back on the sniff. My cocaine addiction is way out of hand again. i never had control if it i dont supose but now i think of pretty much nothing else. so brads gone away for 5 weeks and he started on the beak too before he went away an he took a 14 ball of coke with him to keep him awake and alert whilw hes there [hes there with work] thats a pissy amount compared with what im snorting now. I wish it wasnt like this/ an 8 bal over 2 days is just too much if i can even make it last tht long. I cant even go and se my friends anymore unless its to pick up coke because im ashame of the way its made me. Red nose, red eyes, sweating constantly, Glazed eyes. Its fucked up./ I hate this,. Im out of control. This is out of comtrol. [going to see wishbone ash on friday! vcant wait]