I cut for the last time...and i feel so good. Before sitd i had never been on a journal website or anything like that and i am so glad that i came across this website. To me it is like home. A safe place. I have many people to thank for their kindness and their concerns. For bringing me up when i was down and making me laugh. You guys made me sleep better at night. If you read back on my first ever entrie you can see how fucked up i felt, but now, today, i feel...content...i feel happy. That is a huge step from being so depressed that i felt immortal and couldnt see anything but darkness at the end of my tunnel - to today. I feel okay. I feel like i can face tommorow. I feel that i no longer need to hack myself almost to the point of death to gain control over what im feeling inside. And for everyones (even the smallest thing) help..thankyou. I could never thank you all enough. But the people that i feel i must thank the most are my 3 greatest friends. The best people anyone could ever meet on a website!! The 3 people that i didnt even know existed until sitd. The people who have cried for me, ached for me and been at my side in even the worst and hardest to deal with situations. Zoe- when i met you - well...i cant even describe that feeling - you are like my sister. Someone who i can connect to on so many levels. We have had sooooooo many arguments along the way. But that doesnt matter now. I think (i hope) i can safely say for the both of us that our friendship is going to be longer lasting. I am so glad i found you. I could never thank you enough x (bush atacked our fakey cake shop!) Frostie-you have always been there. Right from the start, and we've had such funny times! I hope you know that making someone like me smile is just amazing! and you did it! you rock! I lost my sence of humor until you! thankyou so much. x (ur still my little bug and cesca is still my carrot buttie) and last but definatley NOT least kate- I have known you for a few months now and im so glad u left that comment on my diary. Your an amazing person and you always put me before yourself. You given me strength to carry on. Its been great knowing you so far and im looking forward to more great times ahead. Thankyou x I love all of you guys so much you all have a place in my heart...forever. xx