chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp. ever had an idea? a really, really, really...spontaneous idea... i guess you could say.... and then really didn't know what to do with it... so you just kind of...chomped on it. HA i know, odd way of putting it, but I has one, and has NO idea where to even being. ah Shea. you are so blonde. chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp.chomp. hum.

Listen to the song here in my heart A melody I start but can't complete Listen to the sound from deep within Its only beginning to find release Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside and turned Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen [chorus] Listen I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home in my own home And I've tried and tried To say whats on my mind You should have known Now I'm done believing you You don't know what I'm feeling I'm more than what You've made of me I followed the voice, you gave to me But now I've gotta find my own You should have listened There was someone here inside Someone I thought had died So long ago Oh I'm screaming out And my dreams will be heard They will not be pushed Aside or turned Into your own [ Listen lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ] All 'cause you won't listen [chorus] Listen I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home in my own home And I've tried and tried To say whats on my mind You should have known Now I'm done believing you You don't know what I'm feeling I'm more than what You've made of me I followed the voice, you gave to me But now I've gotta find my own You should have listened I don't know where I belong But I'll be moving on If you don't, if you won't Listen to the song here in my heart A melody I start, but I will complete Now I am done believing you You don't know not what I am feeling I'm more than what you've made of me I followed the voice you think you gave to me But now I got to find my own - my own

I hate it here. i fucking hate it here. so fucking much. Lisa: "you guys were SO normal. such a normal family... and then..it just kind of blew up and fell apart. It was weird." i'm such a cry baby sometimes. but crying to myself is better then crying to anyone else, because honestly? no one else cares. And keith would probably think i'm right fucked up...and never come back. you are all so fucked up. garred. I blame you. I BLAME YOU. if you'd just be normal fucking fourteen year old, do you KNOW how much happier life would be?! Do you even REALISE that mosty of this drama and fucked up shit is because of you. You're at the center of it, causing it all. and because you can't get ahold of yourself, I, ME, I feel the repricusions. FUCK YOU. if you want to act grown up, then GROW UP, and learn some maturity, because THIS, as a whole, is getting ridiculous and out of hand. FUCK YOU. ALL THREE OF YOU. if you fucking move away dad, i'll never speak to you again. ever. and your fucking COW of a girlfriend can go shove it up her ass. and you can have your asshole, lieing stealing son. because i won't be a part of her bullshit. and you moving away is liek betraying me. so FUCK YOU. FUUUUCK YOU. MOTHER. you BI-POLAR FUCKING PHSYCO. go get yourself some fucking meds or SOMETHING, but STOP ruining other peoples lives. because thats what your doing to mine with the way you fight with everyone. at this point your not anyone i would ever want to be. In my own head ive become violent, unforgiving, bitter, and cruel. Other people always used to come first, but not anymore. fuck that. i'm tired of being fucked over. used. and abused. so before i get anymore suicidal... I Quit. you all fucking deal with your own probelms. AND LEAVE ME ALONE. because i'm not okay with it anymore. Goodbye.

To do is to be - Descartes, To be is to do - Voltaire, Do be do be do - Sinatra.

You fight about money, bout me and my brother And this I come home to, this is my shelter It ain't easy growin up in World War III Never knowin what love could be, you'll see I don't want love to destroy me like it has done my family

of the two people I randomly know, for these two total opposites to know eachother. FROM CAMROSE. i don't think i've ever even BEEN to camrose. sean blades... and andy burns. sean and i were...how shall we put this...delicately put... seeing eachother for a while. and now i work with andy. what the hell. haha

It's Kind Of killing me. that i really have no one to vent to... no one to talk to. and i can write and write and write, but in the end, who cares? no one. it's just kind of bringing me down. well more then kind of. and im a little sick and tired of liars, back stabbers, and shallow assholes. i wish it would all just end, or everyone would just grow up. i'm kinda liking the idea of just picking up and moving away and starting over.... not that that would go over very well for me. buts its certainly very tempting. I don't get along with anyone at school, I'm definitely an outsider. No one would even talk to me if i wasn't at least decent at what I do. I'm ready to move out, but how do you move out when there is no one to move out WITH. really, looking at it TECHNICALLY...i have no friends. I have some people that... put up with me...or pity me, or use me. but no one whose content to just be my friend. I still owe 800 dollars for school now, soon to be another 420 on top of that, and about 1200 dollars on credit cards. I owe 205 dollars IN my bank account, and i have a 233 dollar cheque in my hand right now. where does it go? stress stress stress. mom wants to sell the house. fuck you bitch. you spend too much time with your boyfriend and his kids to even care about what happens there. You aren't coming to my competition this weekend. You probably won't come to my fashion show. and knowing who you've become now, you wont be at my grad. i'll go alone. to all of the above. fuck you. glorious sadness. and just general lonliness. and emptiness. i hate you so much, it makes me hate myself. what happened to a perfect family?

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. My biggest problem is when people lie. like ACTUALLY. it just fucks everything up. from parties, to friendships. Quit fucking lieing. cause it's kind of ridiculous, and uncalled for. and kind of ruined my entire weekend. 4 times. fuck you. Chad. Matt. Devon. Shayne. FUCK. 4 men, GO FIGURE. CHad - brother? fuck you. that party wasn't at all what it was supposed to be. YOU fucked up.you lied to EVERYONE chad. and for that I'M getting the reprecussions. FUCK YOU and your fucking teeniebopper friends. Matt - what IS your problem. I really wass starting to like you. and you lied to me. and led me on. typical guys. typical. get what you want and ditch. no REALLY? Devon- Do you love ashley? or do you want her gone, cause for fucks sake, what the hell is happening? I want to help you, but you keep beating around the bush and im not quite sure EXACTLY where your going. Shayne - Not that you REALLY lied... but you fucking around with me. 3 girls the night of the party, and then ;ast night me? like what? DO you just need to get laid THAT badly, or is there more to it? i mean COME OFF IT. the only that keeps me wondering is you refuse to have sex with the other girls, the most you'll do is get head from them. and yet me?...you just wanna sleep with me, your weird.fuck you.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh Every day of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry Every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry In the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid Because of you Because of you

People Are so fucking retarded. Jeremy. Devon. Lauryn. Mostly. you three fuck me over time and again. Jeremy how could you? how could you hurt me like that. after all i did for you. after how much you knew i trusted you. what makes you think your a fucking god? Lauryn.Devon. Lauryn you are my best friend, and at every single turn you betray ever strand of friendship i hand you. and im fucking tired of your fucking bullshit. You KNEW. i cared. I even TOLD you while we were there. you took advantage of his being drunk, and you betrayed me, yet again. Im so sick of it. SO sick of it. good luck with your life. cause i no longer want to be a part of it.

Kay No Seriously. When I Said I Love You... I Meant It. Why Do They Always Have To Lie. Fucks sake. Jeremy; I really do love you. and you find it necessary to hurt me time and again. What did I EVER do to deserve your heartbreak, along with every single other guys. I'm so tired of trusting people that just find it easy and acceptable to hurt me. i wanted to trust you so bad, so i let myself go. and look where it landed me. seriously Jeremy. Fuck You. I love you. And your just another pretty boy heartbreaker. go figure. i love you. goodbye.

your afraid it all might end, and a broken heart is scared of breaking again. but you gotta believe me, ill never leave you, you'll never cry as long as i am there. and i will ALWAYS be there. Don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep cause id miss you baby and i don't wanna miss a thing cause even when i dream of you the sweetest dream would never do. then i kiss your eyes, and thank god we're together. i just wanna stay with you, in this moment, forever. even though there may be times, it seems i'm far away. never wonder where i am, cause i am always, by your side. cause i'm lady. and you are my man. whenever you reach for me; i'll do all that i can. we're heading for something. somewhere i've never been. sometimes i am frightened; but im ready to learn about the power of love. little diddy bout Jack And Diane, two american kids growin up in the heart land. jackie gunna be a football star, diane's debutante of jackie's car. little diddy bout you n' me. two kids growin up in the heart lands. you're gunna be my baby boy star. ima be debutante of our car ;). gonna let it rock. let it roll. hold on to 16 as long as you can. change is commin' round real soon, make us women and men. i wanna sleep on the cold hard ground, wrapped in your arms. that sounds good to me. cowboy take me away. closer to heaven above, and closer to you. i wanna walk and not run, i wanna skip and not fall, i wanna look at the horizon and not see a building standing tall. i wanna be the only one for miles and miles except for maybe you, and your beautiful smile. it sounds so good to me. cowboy take me away. cause our song is the slammin screen door sneakin' out late tappin' on your window when we're on the phone and you talk real slow, cause its late and your mama don't know. i'm not the first to know, there's just no getting over you. you know im just a fool, who's willing to sit around and wait for you. i'm hopelessly devoted to you. i'm out of my head hopelessly devoted to you. my head is saying fool forget him. my heart is saying dont let go. hold onto him. and that's what i intend to do. i'm hopelessly devoted to you. its undeniable that we should be together. cause 1. your like a dream come true. 2. just wanna be with you. 3. cause its plain to see, that you're the only one for me and 4. repeat steps 1 through 3 5. make you fall in love with me. if ever i believe my work is done, then i'll start back at 1. ill be your dream ill be your wish ill be your fantasy ill be your hope ill be your love be everything you need ill love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do. i will be strong i will be faithful cause im counting on a new beginning a reason for living a deeper meaning i wanna stand with you on a mountain. i wanna bathe with you in the sea. i want to lay like this forever. until the sky falls down on me. I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight It Must Have Been Something You Said. I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight. Have you ever been in love You could touch the moonlight When your hearts shooting stars Youre holding heaven in your arms Have you ever been so in love Have you ever walked on air Ever felt like you were dreamin When you never thought it could But it really feels that good Have you ever been so in love The time I spent Waiting for something that was heaven-sent When you find it dont let go, I know Have you ever said a prayer And found that it was answered All my hope has been restored And I aint looking anymore Have you ever been so in love, have you... Some place that you aint leavin Somewhere youre gonna stay When you finally found the meanin Have you ever felt this way -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Jeremy.Alexander.Jaggers. What Makes you so damn irresistible boy? It's somehow entirely crazy that your everything I ever dreamed you could possibly be.and Jeremy, something in your laugh makes me giggle, and the way you say i love you, makes me wiggle. squirm and blush, words you'll learn to accept all too well, how can i not with you're voice even. Once i have you, it Can only get worse, and so much better, because I can finally Hold you. And I'd like someone to try and say your not my type, cause i know what i feel inside, when you make me weak with desire. I know that im supposed to make you wait, let you think i like the chase, but i cant stop fanning the fire. you just make me wanna be everything you can imagine me to be. Never lose your sense of wonder, get your fill to eat, but keep your hunger, may you never take one single moment for granted. i hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean, and when one door closes, another opens. and when you get the chance to sit it out or dance... dance baby. dance. never fear the mountains in the distance. never settle for the path of least resistance. living might mean taking chances, but they're worth takin, lovin cant be a mistake, but if it is, its worth making. dont let some hell bent heart leave you bittwer, and reconsider before giving up. cause baby, god spent a little more time on you. but look at me. I will Never pass for a perfect bride, or a perfect daughter. Jeremy, I love you. and i hope im everything you need me to be baby.

You're On a Bus Right Now. For What Seems Like It Will Be Forever. But you will be home. Friday Morning, at like 1 30AM your time... like 12 30 my time. And I probably wont sleep till then, Say my name. i love how he keep my body screaming-- a rouge boy thats good to me-- with street credibility. You're Everything a girl needs, soldier boy. what kind of love have you got? You should be home but your not. And Its Just A reminder. Be Cautious. Where Is Your Boy Tonight? I Hope He Is A Gentleman. a room full of noise, and dangerous boys, still makes you thirsty and hot. And He's More Dangerous Then Any Room Full Of Boys. Your Final Risk. victim of love, i see your broken heart, you got your stories to tell. victim of love, its such an easy part, and you know how to play it so well. you were there by my side, always down for the ride. And The ride isn't gunna end. thanks for makin me a fighter. You Make Me Stronger then I've ever been. this ain't a song for the broken hearted. you and me, we're writing a love melody. Its MY life. And Its Now Or Never. I Ain't Gunna Live Forever. My Heart Is Like AN Open Highway. I Just Wanna Live While I'm Alive. And your makin me live. When Your Callin Me. When I Hear You Breath. I Get Wings To Fly. I Feel Like I'm Alive. I'm Glad That I'm ALive. You've Set My Heart On Fire. Follow Me, Everything Is Alright. I'll Be The One To Tuck You In At Night. And If You Wanna Leave, I Can Garuntee You Won't Find Nobody Else Like Me. I Drove All Night, To Get To You. Is That Alright? I Drove All Night, Crept in your room, woke you from your sleep, to make love to you. Is That Alright? And I'll drive for the rest of my life if it means holding you jeremy. if i live to be 100, and never see the 7 wonders that will be alright. cause ill have you JAJ. if i don't make it to the big leagues, if i never win a grammy ill be just fine. Because you'll be right there beside me baby. sometimes im clueless and im clumsy, but ive got you and you love me. its all a part of me thats who i am. so when i make a big mistake, when i fall flat on my face, i know i'll be alright. because ive got my boy. Me And My Girls Gunna Shake The Room. You aint never seen anything like this before. Sweat until my clothes fall off. or until you take them off. So my girls, get your boys. gunna make some noise. cause when your good to mama; mama's good to you. i said i love you and i swear i still do, but living with me will damn near kill you. ready for me now boy? just a small town girl. livin' in a lonely world. she took the midnight train going anywhere. just a city boy. born and raised in south Detroit.(Tampa Florida) he took the midnight train going anywhere. and thats where we collided. has no one told you? She's not breathing. Hello, I'm Your mind, giving you someone to talk to. Hello? If I Smile And Don't Believe, Soon I Know, I'll Wake From This Dream. Don't Try To Fix Me, I'm Not Broken. Hello. Don't Cry. I'm really scared jeremy. its almost too good to be true. and that frightens me. ive never felt safe before. suddenly i know im not sleeping hello im still here. all thats left of yesterday. Everything here is very broken, i dont know if you realise what you've come to pick up. but its very broken. and im scared for us. for you and me. for me and my family. for you and yours. i just want it to be okay. I Find i Can't Hide From Your Eyes. The Ones That Took Me By surprise. The Night You Came Into My Life. Where there's moonlight i see your eyes. Why Does Distance Make Us Wise? You were the song all along. And before the song dies. I should Tell You. I Have Always loved you. you can see it in my eyes. and if it all ends, i wont regret what i did for love. and i do love you. and i am scared. and i hope you understand. i cant wait to be with you. but im so safe, im terrified. and im scared to not live up to what you think i am. but im so excited to be evrything you need. I'm forever yours. faithfully. wheels go round and round, your on my mind. restless hearts sleep alone tonight, sending all my love alone the wire. lovin a music girl aint always what its supposed to be. oh boy, you stand by me. And being apart aint easy on this love afair, two strangers learn to fall in love again. i get the joy of discovering you. im forever yours, faithfully. Faithfully; I'm Still Yours. and i am alone. but in my heart. you will ALWAYS be. i love you.

So There's A Boy. And it's kind of childish to want him so bad when i don't even know him yet. but i love him. love him. im scared. im terrified actually. he's perfect... and unreal. but so real. so close but so far. Khan-Verse. JAJ. I've got a confession ;) I can't wait to see him. I can't wait to touch him. hug him. kiss him. cuddle him. love him. I'm so scared

Jeremy.Alexander.Jaggers. Baby I Don't Know How You Do What You Do. I'm So In Love With You. It Just Keeps Gettin' Better. I Wanna Spend The Rest Of My Life With You By My Side. It Just Keeps Gettin' Better.

When You Think Happiness. I Hope You Think That Little Black Dress. Think Of My Head On Your Chest. And My Old Faded Blue Jeans.

I am an abstruse, enigmatic, whimsical, capricious, romantic figure, often seen scaling walls and spinning webs. I write award-winning Pulitzer novels, I translate ethnic slurs for Jewish refugees, I manage time efficiently. Occasionally, I woo women with my sensuous and godlike prowlessness. I am an expert in sailing, a veteran in love, and an outlaw in Peru. I can rollerblade up severe inclines with unflagging speed, and I cook Thirty-Minute rice in less than twenty minutes. Using only a hoe and a large glass of spring water, I once single-handedly defended a small village in the Amazon Basin from a horde of ferocious army ants. I am a private citizen, yet I receive fan mail. I have been caller number ninety five and have won the weekend passes. Children trust me. I have performed several covert operations for the CIA. The laws of physics do not apply to me. I balance, I weave, I dodge, I frolic, and I am never "it". On weekends,to let off steam, I participate in full-contact origami. Years ago I discovered the meaning of life but forgot to write it down. I have won bullfights in Madrid, fencing competitions in Sri Lanka, and spelling bees at the Kremlin. I have played Hamlet, I have performed open-heart surgery, and I have spoken with Elvis. But I have not yet talked to you.

boys boys boys. up Left Center Right down uhg. He's probably dabbin on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo. i took louisville slugger to both headlights. yourallieverwanted.yourallieverneeded. i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh. i keep your photograph, i know it serves me well. because im broken.when im lonesome. The worst is over now and we can breath again. theres so much love to learn, and no one left to fight. try to control me boy you get dismissed. its 50-50 in relationships. I depend on me. wait...they dont love you like i love you. dont want you for the weekend. dont want you for a night. im only interested if i can have you for life. by the time i say go, you'll never say no. God must have spent a little more time on you. Im way too cool for you boy, thats why it'll never work. damn all these beautiful girls. something tells me that we'd have fun together i aint easy to find, im one of a kind. tonight is yours, tomorrow's for another guy. if he sticks around, be careful not to fall in love. the real me is a outhern girl with her levis and an open heart, wish i could save the world like i was super girl. but with you. with nothing a tshirt on. i never felt so beautiful. where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman. She's in love with the boy. and even if they have to run away shes gunna marry that boy someday. my high school ring will have to do till i can buy a wedding band. her daddy says he aint worth a lick. but baby, shes young, and she just dont care, she'll follow him...anywhere. cowboy...take me away fathers a name you havent earned yet. you just a child with a temper. havent you heard dont hit a lady. kickin your ass would be a pleasure. he's drunk again. its time to fight. she grabs the gun, shes had enough... Tonigth she'll find out just how tough is this man. She's Just A Woman. Never Again.

Now I know I messed up bad You were the best I ever had I let you down in the worst way It hurts me every single day I'm dying to let you know Now I'm here to say I'm sorry And ask for a second chance Cause when it all comes down to the end I could sure use a friend So many things I would take back You were the best I ever had I don't blame you for hating me I didn't mean to make you leave You and I were living like a love song I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone Now I know you're the only one that I want I want you back, I want you Now I'm here to say I'm sorry And ask for a second chance Cause when it all comes down to the end I could sure use a friend Now I'm here to say I'm sorry And ask for a second chance All I want to do is make it up to you Cause when it all comes down to the end You were the best I ever had We fell in love for a reason Now you're leaving And I just want you back So many things we believed in Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back I'll never let go of the heart I broke You and I were living like a love song Now I know you're the only one that I want I want you back, I want you Now I'm here to say I'm sorry And ask for a second chance All I want to do is make it up to you Cause when it all comes down to the end I could sure use a friend Now I'm here to say I'm sorry And ask for a second chance All I want to do is make it up to you Cause when it all comes down to the end You were the best I ever had I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me I feel so bad, I feel so bad You were the best I ever had I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me I feel so bad, I feel so bad You were, You were the best I ever had